But I determined this with myself, not to come to you again in sorrow.
But I determined this with myself, that I would not come again to you in heaviness.
BUT I definitely made up my mind not to grieve you with another painful and distressing visit.
But I determined this for myself, that I would not come again to you with sorrow.
So I decided that, for my own sake, I wouldn’t visit you again while I was upset.
But I determined this within myself, not to return again to you in sorrow.